Chapter 3, kicks off on a sad note as we can see. According to this, he didn't only let himself down, but the Host, his wife, and his little son. It's a little mood changing, especially the lat two panels because it's create a very sad tone. It seems that him letting his little son down, hurts him the most than any other person. Maybe because he couldn't set a good role model to him, or that he was too young and that he'll never get the chance to be role model. He knows that he's coming down to his counting days and instead of being bitter about something inevitable he acknowledges what he has and thinks positively about it. He also accepted that he can no longer go any further and rather than being selfish by slowing the host behind he stayed behind. Telling by these panels I actually believe that he's a well being.